I was recently challeneged to describe this year in one word. I chose “exhilerating.” The word sums up this year for me in the absolute worst and best way.
On January 1st, 2016, I didn’t know all the experiences I would have in Southeast Asia. I didn’t know the joy I would feel as my cousin got married, and I didn’t know the heartache I would feel just a couple months later as my other cousin passed away. I didn’t know what it would feel like to graduate from community college and just a few days later start my Bachelor’s online. I didn’t know what it would be like to move to a familiar but entirely different town, and not be in the community I called home for almost ten years. I didn’t know I would get to have a family reunion with a part of my family I honestly felt so unfamiliar with and began to grow relationships with. I didn't know all the wonderful people I'd meet along the way. Through all the those things, God revealed himself in entirely new & fresh ways to me. Ways that allowed me to see his character, love, grace, & joy resound in not only my life but that of those around me and also in ways I may never know on this side of heaven. It is a beautiful thing to be a part of something so much bigger & beautiful than myself. I didn’t know, but God did. And, as hard as this is to say sometimes, God orchestrated this year in its beautiful, messy, emotional, amazing, difficult, joyful way, and I am who I am now because of it. Tomorrow, on January 1st, 2017, there will be countless events over the coming year that I don’t know are going to happen and how I am going to experience them, but what I am confident and sure of is God is faithful, constant, and he has already overcome any obstacle that I may face and is already preparing my heart and mind for it.
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“You will never be completely at home again, because part of your heart always will be elsewhere. That is the price you pay for the richness of loving and knowing people in more than one place.”
- Miriam Adeney At this time one month ago, I was in Atlanta, Georgia beginning the process of unraveling from the last three months. It was something that I was entirely and wholeheartedly ready for yet so unprepared. The previous three months had been seeing parts of the world that I couldn’t have ever envisioned, experienced a sense of community that is now so special to me, meeting people in different nations & cultures that I left a piece of my heart with, and I believe I came home different. I recently saw the quote at the beginning of this post, and it resonated so perfectly with how I feel. Since being home, I’ve wanted to share about what it’s like for me, but my heart & mind have been so all over the place it seems. What that quote means to me is not that I won’t feel at home where I currently am, and it doesn’t mean I will always be wanting to go somewhere else in the world, but what it does mean is because of where I’ve been, I feel at home because of the people i’ve met along the way. I feel at home in the states that I have family & friends, at Danita’s Children in Haiti, the ten other states of my teammates from Southeast Asia, at Outpour Movement in Thailand, at New Hope for Orphans in Cambodia, and all the people in between along the way. It also hasn’t been the easiest transition being home, and there has definitely been some ups & downs both emotionally and spiritually. But through that, it has also been so good. What I learned is that this journey that began before going to Southeast Asia may continue inside and around me for a long time because God always has something new waiting. |
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June 2017
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