When someone we love goes home to be with Jesus, it is never (never) easy.
Three weeks ago today my uncle Michael did just that. I was working that Thursday night and did not have a good shift. In fact, I was angry when I got home. I wanted to throw my head in my pillow and scream (ok, maybe a little dramatic but you get the point). I walked in the door and my mom asked how my shift was so I told her and went on for about ten minutes complaining and venting. Right after, she looked me in the eyes and told me, "before you go on Facebook, uncle Michael passed away today." It was that feeling I get when I get told scary or heart-wrenching news. I felt as though my heart dropped into my stomach. I slowly began to cry. I was confused and sad all at the same time. I barely remember what she told me afterwards. What I will never forget, is how God prepared me for that news. And I know for a fact it was God who orchestrated it all together. For about two months I can remember having the topic of death in my thoughts. I know, not a very happy topic, but that is what was on my mind. What I realized and wanted to keep in mind was that if someone close to me died, that I would be okay. I would not be angry with God for taking such a special person from this world. I would know that it is all a part of His perfect timing and plan. And when I feel sad or distressed, I would turn to God because He gives me such comfort and joy. The joy of the Lord is our strength. - Nehemiah 8:10 God was preparing me for this to happen. I did not know it would, but He did and He was preparing my heart and mind. My uncle was definitely a special man. I cherish the day I spent with him and the love he showed me and all my cousins through numerous emails and letters. You don't realize it yet but God is preparing you for the unexpected.
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